Sleepless Night

Did you ever experience of an evening and a night when you are physically drained by the day's work but you are unable to bring the very needed peaceful sleep? I often experience such nights where the mind becomes restless and yesterday was such night. Countless thoughts were racing and playing around my head making me sick. From work to home, family and friends to tight grip of money you experience at times, the night was seeming too long. The worst was thoughts about tomorrow being  work day after two days off; I had to be up by 5:00 AM for duty and missing the bus early in the winter morning isn't pleasant at all. These all jammed the very peaceful rest I needed and it was like what the hell? I grab the book titled"The White Tiger" by Aravind Adiga which I borrowed from a friend with the hope of getting some six hours sleep which I  do normally. And it did solve my problem! I don't remember at what time the book was able to provide me much needed sleep, but it was already 04:45 when the alarm clock wake me up.

The past month wasn't really that smooth; there were so many constraints that was physically and mentally draining me out. Keep aside of writing new posts in my blog, I wasn't even able to read other's. Not all incidents in life are worth remembering or worth sharing, life is combinations of all these funny, good, memorable, sweet, sour and awkward moments. Some of these give us courage, some show us way forward, some make us ponder about the mistakes we made and how to go about with it, some strike us with unexpected surprises while some are just the coincidences. There are also incidents which rather demotivates and make us hate the moment we think about it. Even the work that I love so much was beginning to get less concentration and the usual up-to date that I was trying to keep (about the profession) began to fade. The thought and the promise to begin this glorious and galloping horse year with so much zeal and energy and with only good ones have suddenly suffered a struck stop and it has kept me wondering if these incidents at the very beginning of a new year foretells the very same throughout as BAD year? It is saddening when you are somehow dragged into that pool of unexpected controversies. Even more depressing is when you are dragged into that pool for which you are not even part of it and you have little connection with it.

Yet behind the curtains of all the bad and worst things, there still lies some unnoticed spare of the other part which is desperately waiting for our attention and if we notice that and are able to trim and care well that little spares which was once dumped, we find time to smile and celebrate- the much needed in the midst of hurdles.  Life isn't perfect for sure yet who does accept this fact? Being human we like only good things to happen, listen only to nice and flowery words. Often do we fail to realize that such SOLO things are impossible and that everything is but a refinement of the other.

With this I would like believe myself that so much lesson has been learnt from the preceding month and that I will take every possible steps to keep myself away from the bay of useless and helpless situations that only does more harm than good.

The Paradox

The stars that twinkles and dances merrily in the middle of sky, who have all the time to watch its happiness and sorrow for that matter? The beautiful moon that brightens the unhappy couple and turns them to a lovely and happy one, who even feels lucky and appreciates this fact?  Very rare! Who would have even felt gratified by the gentle shower that drains all the sad and bad emotions and not cursed the summer rain that sometimes gets lippy? Who have all the time to see the beauty of all these wonders? The music that enthralls and soothes ones deranged soul and crippled body, who even cares when all is well and everything, is alright.  Unless we feel alone, lonely and estranged, we have no time acknowledge these small beauties that enriches our life.

The closest neighbor who lives just a step away; did you even greet and exchanged hi and hello? We have ample of time to chat and flirt with strangers on the social networking sites and hardly a second to greet our neighbor whom we share a lot of resembles. We (and them in return) hear all the loud noises from the blasting woofers in the late evenings, we witness their kids play around, hear all the silly and usual fights and the irony is that we are but a complete strangers!

The long gone friends, whom you shared same clothes once, whom you have had same meals from the same plate, Do you, even care to call them and say “hi dude, I missed you, how have you been?” Once you are apart, taking your own path, you get sucked by the silly things and you are drenched in the rain of clumsiness. We seem to get lost in the world of nowhere, which is so sad.

 Perhaps the line says it best which I read somewhere and which isn’t complete:

“We have more houses but less home, more acquaintances but less friends, taller buildings but shorter temper, more degrees but less senses, more knowledge but less judgment, more experts but more problems, we have done  more things but not better things, we stay up too late and get up too tired!”

The New Year

The year 2013 has been one of the most special year for me; a mixture of both good and bad. From ending a wonderful college life to struggling for a space with the rest of crowd on the streets and finally getting relieved after the Drukair Corporation came to rescue and starting a new professional life, the year wasn't that smooth. But all the more its only with the scar that a smooth surface comes and looking back i think I have done a good justice. This gives me an immense strength to tackle  and face the unimaginable and unavoidable circumstances that are on the way. This encourages me to move forward with a good thought combined with good actions guided by good conscience.

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The year has also been a wonderful one with my blog hit climbing 10.000 views.It  feels good to have your blog read by others but it  feels great and even more satisfying to read and learn from other fellow bloggers where I derive a lot of inspiration and motivation. and today on this very first day I would like to make myself clear that I will continue to do so. Blogging is one thing that has captured my mind, that relieves me to have vomit what the rubbish mind has been strangling with and beside all these, blogging has become an integral companion. This year's new year eve is special because my mom just came all the way from the my place to stay with me and that's so satisfying.

As the gallop of  male horse year begins, I would like to wish all my blogger friends a very successful, prosperous and wonderful year and life ahead. I would also like to resolute myself to see good, do good and be good.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!