Thursday, 30 August 2012

A kind of Discrimination?

Every body is against gender discrimination and I personally feel gender discrimination and distinction shouldn't exist after all both men and women are but human being with same kind of emotions, same blood and bones. And when it comes to gender discrimination what instantly comes to one's perception is women being underestimated and underscored; maybe because of age old tradition that women means just confined to four corners of kitchen and no where else. How ever I feel this point is no longer acceptable. There are sections of society where it is just the opposite and it is only because these are left unnoticed!

From Google
what is more amusing is the fact that can't be denied; we just have to observe around us with every day life of ours and then feel it by our own self. A very practical example just to supplement my point; I was in Dean's (academic affairs) office on 27/08/2012 to collect my senior's mark sheets and other documents at around 3:30 pm. There were some other guys too who were in queue to collect their bonafide certificates. Two girls came by for their bonafide certificate and they directly went inside the office where as we weren't allowed but somehow some guys got through and what was surprising was that those girls easily got their certificates and when a guys inquired about his he was denied! On top of that we all were told that the certificates will be given only after 5:30 pm (after the class). One guys was retrospecting about the incident (girl being granted) which was but fruitless. And we had to returned! It was then when I asked if it is a kind of discrimination?

Well; I am not at all jealous of that incident but I am really amused by the fact that discrimination is still prevalent and we can never deny it. I always feel there is no discrimination and that we are all equal with equal potentials But somehow I am still awed as to what is that one good and obvious thing that really triggers distinction between a men and women? I think the fact that "what women have, men doesn't have and what men have, women doesn't have" should balance the very equation of any kind of distinction and must suffice to prevent any kind of difference.

 With this I am again taken back to memories of my primary school time in sixth grade; where my mathematics teacher who was also my class teacher upgraded and promoted one girl (because she emotionally and innocently cried when the teacher visited her house one time!!) from just a 'pass to first position instead of me which in fact was me!!. The point which I like to make is; Yes females definitely have some kind of charismatic quality that triggers others especially the males with such priorities and preferences over the males. I may be wrong but I hardly remember of boys being treated as such from a group of both sex.

However at the end of day, what I really believe is the kind of conviction and confidence we possess that makes all the differences. I met such kind of instances; maybe that is because I was unfortunate.  I strongly feel there shouldn't exist any kind of discrimination and distinction for it is the very gateway to all kind of chaos and disharmony. The present world is at best and I only wish that the sections of society if at all such discrepancies exist be changed; change for betterment!...

Sunday, 26 August 2012

A wake up Call

On 02/08/2012 the Royal civil service Commission of Bhutan announced the vacancies for BCSE 2012 Graduates and it was really shocking to know the number of graduates appearing for  BCSE, more than 2600 numbers!. It just depicts that Life is not going to be easy after every passing days and year. I was particularly shocked to see the Electronics and Communication Engineering course (my course!) having just one vacant post against 24 competitors! Because the branch, which has so much scope in India and abroad is just the opposite in a country- a fastest developing country with Hydro power being the largest growing Industries.
However;on the other hand, it has also been a very good wake up call for people like me who are yet to go through that sometime later. But the question that still remains is: How without the Vacancy?  Even with laudable result? Can the Government really solve the problem of unemployment? It also shows that the situation is changed and is in constant change unlike the time of 1960s.

And on 24th, the same month, the results of Preliminary Examination declared with minimum cut off being 53 out of 100. It too was really surprising to hear one of friend, who once got scholarship in the xii standard did not get through. Does this at all have to do with LUCK? I wonder.
With everything seeming to move so first, I have lately realized that life is not that easy. We earn what we give and that comes with so much hardship, having to sweat,sacrifice and strife. Nothing is like a free lunch! The modern world has little space for a mediocre and everyday men.

May be it is high time that I learn from the mistakes of others and the situations; and the think of mistake always take me back to my own mistake; the kind of decision I took in the xii standard and after that; the decision I made that has changed the complete course of my life's road. At the same time i also feel Nothing happens for no reason and that every dog has it's own day. This has what solaced me through both hard and smooth times from then and hope I will thrive from now as well.
 I do feel we definitely need someone to guide in the midst of confusions, predicament and dilemma, no matter how much wise we are or how plentiful choice we have. A turn of just one page or a slip from a small tip of point is ought to make huge difference in the long run. We never know!

Now the wake up bell has already rang. To wake up and peep out and start thinking for the day or go deeper into the blankets of negligence is on our hand. I particularly have heard it loud and I am not going to miss it; I am going to abide by the bell and make my self comfortable for the day and the rest I shall leave for the almighty; May be time time will tell then...Lets see!..

Tuesday, 21 August 2012

A sense of Dejavu!!

from Google.
Sometimes I hate myself for who I am. Because every now and then I wonder why I am trapped into that noose of embarrassment and insecurity. The more we are aged, the more humble and wise we are to become but for me, I just feel the opposite! After living for twenty three years, I still wonder if I have someone whom I can rely upon recklessly. Does this mean I am so mean and different? Or is it something like I can never be a good human being?  Every new day I try to evaluate my self that the coming day is but best for making my self  a better human being and a better day but it has not always seemed fruitful.

There was always one quality which I wanted to develop so direly since nursery  and still I feel I haven't acquired that quality- Confidence. I was so embarrassed when a Professor of the college told me: " You are talking as if a timid first year, talk confidently like you are really a final year student. Be confident" Why do I stammer the moment I begin to talk? Why do the fear engulfs me the moment a word comes off my lips?

It isn't the first time that I felt so insecure of myself especially with regards to that temporal but necessary stuffs of life which seems to rule this very life. May be that is the ruthless confrontation ever, a student of any kind  could face in his life; how ever the fact doesn't really compromise anything with another fact: 'one's own reality'. Rather it is but a blow to someone less fortunate and there is when life seems unfair!! Anyway Some how I have always managed with the assistance of good surrounding friends and that is what makes me proud. That does not however dilute the mere fact of my own perceptions; Yes at times I also wish if I had my own blood brother and sister in that par where they are able to foresee, whom I can rely up on without any hesitation,  whom I can have all the conversations without any bars. And the worst part of all these is a kind of 'envy' that eventually rolls over me, and that is really bad though.

Life isn't just a bread and butter- a regular make-eat stuff. It is very much more than that! It is so precious and precarious as well and we are reminded of it's preciousness only at times of crisis, at times of sickness, most commonly when something unexpected and undesirable thing happens to us. I was just reminded of how much value this life has and how much it is important to be reminded of that. Even a minor sickness like a disorder with you body system, a bit of uneasiness makes us think of life in the past; how we have spent and what could have possibly done in that span of time.By the time we are bedridden, which is never predictable it seems so late! It is only with the regrets that will hover our heads.

I often wondered if I have any purpose in my life, but now the bigger question that hovers my head is if I can really be able to know that purpose and if at all will I be able to serve it well? That is what I ask every evening I go to bed and every morning when the rays of morning sun welcomes me, and what my instinct tells me is: " Life is to move on no matter what". Then a smile takes away all that insecurities, fears and frustrations, embarrassments and sadness for a moment and that is what keeps me going along with others in this journey so called "LIFE"

Thursday, 2 August 2012


I feel it is the very nature of mankind to change;  with success that comes our way, with the ladders we climb up and with the environment as well. The higher we climb the steps of success and wellness. the more reluctant we seem to become.  It is not just in the silver screen movies and Drama series that are being depicted, it happens everywhere in everyday life,Although the change in inevitable in life, it must not be at the cost of a breach to someone we care about, and someone we ought something!
Even in my own eyes, I have witnessed incidents where one's one priorities that were in the first line become the last, a son and wife becoming so rude to their own parents and even treating like maidservants Every primary preference becomes secondary then. There is one incident I can never forget in my life; It was in the month of July, 2012 in Samdrup Choeling, where there was a daughter-in law who was very rude to her own husband's mother! who was in serious ailment.And I was helpless and hapless, I couldn't do anything, I remained on the spot just wondering and staring on that bitch and the pitiful grandma.

The greatest fear I have is; if ever I also get trapped into this web and become the very victim of this venom. As of now, I know what my priorities are, what my objectives are and the corrections I will do; but at the same time I am worried as to how these will actually go along the line of this life. I always think there are moral responsibilities and principles which guides every individual and refining that or ignoring that is completely up to one self though.

At least at this stage, when I am helpless, I certainly try to learn from the mistakes I make my self and from the mistakes of others as well, because I think  this will assist me in the long run to correct my self if at all circumstances drags me into that dark pool and pull me up. Sometime I am so skeptic that this life is but a curse, because we grow up from an innocent child to a vicious monster who does,'t recognize even their own parents keep aside the surrounding ones!

But why does all these happen is a valid question? Is it always the bride(girl) in case of boys who are responsible for the changes- to such unfortunate ones?  Is marriage the main main culprit behind all these changes? Or is it the wealth and wellness that instill ans props all these changes in one's personality?  Is it the chair that comforts and makes all the realities disappear?What could be other possible reasons? I wonder!..


(from Google)
As a little child I still remember when I collected with pride, the prizes for getting positions in the class in academics. As a reward to the hard-work we have put in, it was rather the inspiration I got. And all the more the kind of embarrassment I would have to go through if i don't keep the same spirit made me study more harder. The other things bothered me less! Just for examination I used to learn mugging up all those formulas of Mathematics and the Theories of chemistry and Physics in the intermediate schools. I hardly knew that learning is more than mere mugging up!

Still now I feel little has changed, although I am about to graduate. What I noticed is the same pattern of  studying, the only difference being the change of syllabus. However,  the amount of time we study is different. It is the last minute preparation that most students get through in the college.

And one thing that is a big blow to especially the Bhutanese students studying in India is the kind of background we come. The fundamentals Indians are groomed with and us have a vast difference. People say Indians are so brainy yet what I feel is Bhutanese are not far below. The only area where Indians are really good is in mathematics, may be that's because they are well groomed as a child preparing for AIEEE, JEE,and so on. On the contrary, Bhutanese students have nothing as such and and instead of that, we spent a long break of about six months after the XII standard and by the time we join the college, every basic concepts of mathematics and physics are vanished!

Some say genius is inborn but i feel the opposite; genius is made with time, it is a marriage of hard-work, dedication, sincerity and schedule. I was just wondering why do people fail in life because I wasn't convinced by all those philosophies of failure being the stepping stones to success.
however, from the back-paper I got in two subjects in the fifth semester of my course, what i realize was the difference in learning every individual has. In the normal classes, the heard of the syllabus itself was burden and the concepts were always an alien to me, not even an ounce of connection!.

During the summer semester, when I took the subjects for the second time, every concepts that were taught in the professor's chamber was but refreshing and I could easily grasp, and that was when I thought of individual's own capability to learn. Not everybody's brain is same! some consume more time than others.But every dog has its day.

Apart from above, the summer semester was also a kind of test in the line of this life. The stay of two months hardly in contact with your loved ones, especially those close in heart was but challenging. It was kind of test to my own self, the loyalty, the trust, and the faith. It was hard to believe that such things were happening for the first time with me as well, which i haven't even dream of. Everything was happening so fast and keeping all in track was hard though.
 I can never forget one moment where it was just like a betrayal from my love; the night of 6th June 2012. As human being, the five poisons always defeats us and  we hardly have control over them.I became too suspicious of that, however with time and explanation from her, it was slowly cooled down. So that is the price for Loving someone else?  There is nothing as free lunch in life, everything comes with price tags.

Ultimately what I realized from the two long months clearing my back-papers in the highest recorded temperature of 48 degree over all India in Allahabad; 1) Failure doesn't really imply incapability of an individual nor does it mean a kind of underestimation. It only means a second chance to prove one self that anything is not impossible for a willing Mind. 2) The heart of any kind of relationship is but Trust!..